Yesterday would have been my Dad's 70 th birthday. I picture him with his grand children gathered around him. Eating birthday cake, giving him Birthday hugs and wishes while teasing him about getting old. We'd find a crazy birthday card that makes fun of how old he is and how he is the best Dad and Grandpa EVER! Then we'd all go home until our next family get together.
My cousin Julie mentioned on facebook today
that when her mother passed to God's presence this past year, she was
met on the other side by people like my Dad, our grandmother, who we all
adored, my Grandfather, two uncles and a whole host of family. I
picture it much like the a fore mentioned party, but without the
wrinkles and the funny cards.
I believe that God intended families
to be together, forever. Not just for birthday parties and holidays her
on earth, but for every warm, happy, fun occasion we can think of.
These times I picture the party my deceased family is having and the one
each of us wishes we could have as well. A little piece of me crumbles
and dies when I realize what an enormous blockade death makes to all of
us being together.
Truthfully, though, Death is only a blockade
for the living. Those of us who cling to this life with fervor and faith
live avoiding or denying death. On the other side though, they wait
with bated breath for us to come to the forever family party.
spent my entire life fighting the inevitability of death only to
realize it comes for each of us until we are all together again. Those
who die before us celebrate the day when they are joined with those who
were left behind. Those left behind mourn our loneliness until we can
join our loved ones. The time between is painful, lonely and dark
without those we love.
The good news is...its but a moment in a
dark tunnel until we join the party as well. I live my life in complete
darkness except for the light I find in my children, my husband, my
family, friends and my Savior. When the party lights come on I hope to
see my father's face. Feel the embrace of my Grandmother's arms and see
the lovely smile of my Aunt Caroline. to kiss Colby Bird and thank him
for sharing his organs and his beautiful family with me. I can't wait to
meet my Savior and wash his feet with my tears. I'll wait to become
strong enough and smart enough to have finished my course, but I look
forward to the Forever Family Party. Just imagine what a party it will
be.Save me some cake, Daddy!